A Matter of TimeWeyrs
Trigger Warning: Death, DrinkingIt was a quiet night, cloudy and too warm as summer was wont to be, perfect for spending time in contemplative solitude in one's quarters, no one but Meguyakuth and a dry Benden red for company. But of all things Dorian thought might interrupt his evening, it wasn't a bronze firelizard flying into his weyr, clutching a letter in his paws. Though it took him a moment to place him, Dorian recognized his little messenger: Venatori, Gereon's firelizard, a spiteful and vicious thing on a
good day. But he was oddly subdued as he landed before Dorian and hopped on one foot to hand off his message before lifting off and vanishing
between as quickly as he'd come. It was strange behavior from a usually ornery creature, no doubt. Perhaps Gereon's letter might grant some insight.
But as his hand moved to break its seal, Dorian paused, hesitating. Gereon hadn't written to him personally for Turns. For him to do so now meant something was wrong, terribly so. Had something happened to Felix? To his parents? Dorian shook his head, reminding himself to take a breath and not drink so much. Perhaps he was simply sending his best pupil congratulations on his Impression, delayed by Hold business. It was a weak excuse and not enough to put his fears to true rest, but it was enough to get him to open Gereon's scroll and deftly unroll it. Awoken from her rest by her bonded's unease, Meguyakuth lifted her head from her paws and observed Dorian quietly, her eyes a soft yellow in her concern, though he didn't notice as he began to read.
Dorian of Green Meguyakuth
I hope my letter finds you well. I hear congratulations are in order; Felix told me from one of your previous letters to him that you'd Impressed your Meguyakuth. I know your parents would've expected more of you than a green, hoping you'd bring them honor by Impressing bronze, no matter your estrangement, but I know you care little of such prospects. From what details he shared, you seem quite fond of her, and she of you. I'm sure that's all that matters, that you are happy. Happiness is something your parents always struggled to understand, but I trust you don't fault them for such a shortcoming.
But congratulations isn't all I bring in writing to you, Dorian. It is in great sorrow that I must inform you that Felix has succumbed to his illness. Our healers did all they could, but he left us yesterday. Thankfully, he passed peacefully and in no pain, a small mercy from which I take great comfort in these dark times. While we all anticipated his passing, foreknowledge cannot prepare one to actually face such a harsh truth. We will hold his memorial in two days' time. Both you and Meguyakuth are welcome to attend. I believe Felix would want you to come. Enclosed, I would relay his last message to you, as per his earnest request.
Lord Gereon
Dorian had to read and reread those words again and again, to make sure his eyes weren't deceiving him. Felix was dead?
Who is he? Meguyakuth asked, eyes betraying her worry, seeing images of a strange man flash by in her bonded's mind, too fast for her to catch.
"Was," Dorian corrected aloud in an oddly steady voice, opening his mind to his memories, to show her who Felix was; a shy boy, whispering about how he'd get in trouble if he followed Dorian, but following him regardless. A boy who had grown into a thoughtful young man that Dorian was proud to know. Well, to've
known. Feeling his throat go tight, he recalled that Gereon had included something from Felix himself, some final words to cling to in these coming days of grief.
It was but a slip of parchment that fell from within Gereon's scroll, a series of sentences written by a shaky hand in scrawling script.
Dorian, my dearest friend.
By your reading these words, I will be gone. I ought to say something witty or profound or lasting, but I'm no good at words; that was always your forte. No matter what situation we'd found ourselves in, you always had something smart to say about it. But it was something so simple that left such a marked impact on me. "It's a brave new world, Dorian," you'd said to yourself, looking far into Igen from my father's holdfast. I took heart in those words, every day, no matter how far apart we found ourselves, in my happiest moments and my saddest. And look at you: you've faced that brave new world and found something beautiful. I regret not being able to meet your Meguyakuth myself, to not see you once more, but knowing she is yours and you are happy is enough for me.
Please do not be sad, Dorian. Be happy. Cherish what you've found and what you will find. Consider it my dying wish.
Felix
Tears blurred his vision as Dorian recalled that day as Felix had written.
Two young men who were little more than boys stood where they could look across Igen's vast sands. One dreamed of a life where he wouldn't inherit his parents' responsibilities and live in miserable luxury, a life where he would be free to do every grand and outlandish thing ever known to man. One was quiet as he supported his friend, knowing he would die one day, accepting that he wouldn't get a chance to see his friend do all these great and wonderful things he said would accomplish, but happy still. "It's a brave new world, Dorian," one said in great confidence to himself, to which his company answered in nothing but a smile.A sob, a harsh and grating sound forced from somewhere his chest, left him. Dorian put his face in his hands, wanting very much to will his tears away. Meguyakuth drew near.
It's a hurt I can't make right, she observed aloud between them, her voice hard and resigned at once.
"As much as I cherish your gifts, no amount of wherries or furbeasts can undo what has happened," he answered in a voice he fought to keep from shaking.
"I'm sorry, my dearest Meguyakuth." Meguyakuth snorted frustration, but said nothing more; she wouldn't press further, not yet.
Dorian poured himself a fresh cup of wine. It wasn't what Felix would've wanted him to do, but he could hardly think of such things right now. If there was ever a time to drown his sorrows in fine wine, he couldn't imagine a better time than now.