Sat Feb 01, 2025 4:33 pm
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She laughed lightly when he brought up her background. "So am I. Believe me, being a wherhandler at a Weyr is far more fun than being a high society lady ever was. I swear, sometimes I think manner were made up to keep people from enjoying themselves at all!" Osk, for his part, was slightly awake, but tucked away in his den in the closet, safely out of sight. The scent of someone new so close by had roused him, but Ronnie seemed at ease, so he was fine to stay where he was and doze. Onisk, it might be noted, was sound asleep, absolutely dead to the world, but equally hidden in her den under the elevated bed.
Ronnie smiled fondly as E'lis talked about the brown. "I'm glad he found me, too. He's such a sweetheart, in his own way. And Onisk is so good with him, so patient and gentle, and I think it does him good to have a little sister. And it's been interesting for us, too, having a wher around who's much more worldly and guarded than either of us. Good, in some ways. Onisk can be dreadfully naive about certain things, and it's nice to not have to be the only one with sense in her head in the bond." Not that she didn't love Onisk dearly, of course, but having someone around that she knew could help her watch out for the white was a deep relief.
"Careful now," she teased E'lis lightly, "You keep flattering me like that, it's liable to go straight to my head!" She smiled fondly at him when he took her hand and kissed it, the slightest blush warming her face. "Why, Eli-kins, I do believe there might be a gentleman hidden somewhere in there," she said.
And then he brought up wanting to go steady again, and her face fell slightly. She sighed, but she let him keep holding her hand. She'd hoped he would've let that go, but...no, they probably did need to talk about it. "Eli-kins, you know I'm dreadfully fond of you," she said. "And I love all the time we get to spend together. I just...part of the reason I left the Hold was because my parents were adamant that I marry. And the idea of being tied down to one man for the rest of my life...I don't think that's for me, Eli-kins. I like flirting, like the feeling of butterflies in my stomach that only a new relationship can give, like kissing and more. And there's so many people in this world, and they're all wonderful in different ways, and the idea of only being with one person and closing myself off to what everyone else can give me...I just feel myself resenting whoever's asking that of me, and I never want to feel like I'm resenting a man as good and kind as you, Eli-kings."
She looked down. "But I know you weren't raised in a Weyr, and I know that sort of lifestyle isn't for everyone, so if you're not comfortable with that..." She trailed off, unable to bring herself to finish that sentence. She bit her lip, then looked up at him. "I don't want to hurt you, Eli-kins, but I have to do what's right for me." She should never have let their flirtation get this far without mentioning it, but she'd been having so much fun with him, and she hadn't wanted to ruin that with serious talk. But if she was going to break his heart, better it happen now than months into an actual serious relationship. She hoped he'd be open to her being with other people too, but she had to be realistic. The holder boys she'd known would never have been comfortable with that. Which was why she'd never truly been happy there. She liked and respected E'lis too much to ever put him in a position where she'd start to hate him the way she had those boys back at Fort Hold.