"Selfish, I suppose, not to want to spend my entire life screaming on the inside."
Dorian Pavus, Dragon Age: Inqusition
BASICS
NAME: Dorian
GENDER: Masculine
PRONOUNS: Masculine (he/him/his)
ORIENTATION: Demi/Homoromantic Homosexual
BIRTHDATE: Early Autumn 2745
AGE: 31 as of 2776
LOCATION: Fort Weyr
OCCUPATION:
WING: Aurora
APPEARANCE
EYES: Grey
HAIR: Black
HEIGHT AND BUILD: 5' 11"
PLAY-BY: Dorian Pavus (Dragon Age: Inqusition)
EXPY SOURCE: Dorian Pavus (Dragon Age: Inqusition)
FULL APPEARANCE:
Dorian, being below average in height, has a light build, as well as dark tan skin that can be described as bright copper after a day outdoors, smooth and flawless, except for a small mole by his right eye. Between raven black hair that's always perfectly styled and his steely gray eyes, high cheekbones and a painstakingly-maintained mustache and goatee, he is quite proud of his appearance overall. Due to his Hold-bred upbringing, he prefers to wear fine garments, often specially tailored to fit his physique, as well as heeled leather boots, cut to fit. Due to his place in working Weyr-life, he usually saves his best garments for fancy occasions. Additionally, Dorian has a mild accent, gets seasick easily, and is allergic to numbweed while in flower. Otherwise, he takes no ill effect.
PERSONALITY
PERSONALITY:
Dorian may come across as both intelligent and good-humored, but petty and shallow as well, giving as much as he gets. Exchanging witty banter and playful flirting are among his favorite pastimes, though his interests are exclusively in men, but doesn't engage in ways that others may find uncomfortable. Dorian is quite charming, glad to make friends in those willing to share a bottle of fine wine and a few laughs, though he's cautious for those who might take advantage of his stature as an ex-Holder. Though Dorian has completely rejected all further notions of nobility and views other Holders disdainfully, he still has a love of luxury and what he'd taken for granted as a young man.
Dorian may not show it, but he genuinely cares for others' wellbeing. Wearing his title of pariah and outcast proudly, he shows incredible empathy for those like him. While being dirty troubles Dorian, he isn't afraid to get involved; if there's a job to be done that requires effort to be done correctly, so be it. But he'll insist on a long bath afterwards and will be quite vexed if he's denied. Being quite proud, Dorian is reluctant to seek aid. Ever. In feeling that he needs to be completely self-reliant, asking for help is a sign of weakness in his eyes. Dorian struggles to manage a superiority complex, developed from his position of power as a Holder, but he's since got it under some degree of control. Sometimes, he misses his home, its comfort, and what relationship he had to his parents, though he'd rather eat his boots than admit it.
HISTORY
FAMILY:
Halward - Holder - father - living (estranged)
Aquinea - Holder - mother - living (estranged)
Siblings/Half-Siblings - none to Dorian's knowledge - open tie(s)!
Cousins - numerous, though Dorian doesn't keep in touch - open tie(s)!
Gereon - Holder - tutor and father-figure - living
SIGNIFICANT OTHER: E'tin of Green Sireth
BIRTHPLACE: Minor Hold in Igen Province
HISTORY: TW: homophobia, arranged marriage (unwanted), death
Dorian's first memories were sunlight reflecting off a sparkling sea.
Dorian was born to Lord Halward and Lady Aquinea, Holders of a Minor Hold near Igen, firstborn and destined for greatness from birth. Personal tutors were hired for him once he was old enough to begin schooling, but he proved a difficult pupil, causing a number of tutors to resign...until Gereon. Gereon showed he understood exactly how to treat Dorian, after which he quickly advanced in his studies under his guidance, demonstrating his intelligence if given purpose. But more than that, Gereon had Felix, a son to whom Dorian connected almost instantly; they've been close friends into adulthood.
Dorian matured into a handsome young man at eighteen Turns, but he was quite wild and flamboyant, especially in his parents' eyes. Rather than let him continue carrying on so embarrasingly, they wanted him to settle down and marry a young woman lined up for him, so they could continue to learn about Holding until it was time for Dorian to take charge in his parents' place. But Dorian always evaded that conversation for one glaring reason: he was gay. While he'd known it for himself for quite some time, he was certain his parents wouldn't understand and insist he marry regardless.
Dorian, tired of sneaking about to engage his various lovers, approached his parents one evening and told them exactly why he wasn't going to settle and marry as he'd been told. Aquinea, his mother, wasn't happy, but she did not retaliate against her son. But his father, Halward, completely refused to accept such a notion, which led them getting into a heated argument. It ended in Dorian storming out, packing his things, and departing his parents' residence in a terrible temper. But after that horrid affair, he was free! While he knew it couldn't last long, he wouldn't waste a minute. Indulging in everything that caught his fancy, it was easily enough to bring scandal to his uptight family, but he didn't care a bit.
After about a sevenday, Dorian returned to his parents' home. It took him a sevenday again to find words to explain. But once he found them, he was blunt, telling that he loved them, but he wouldn't wed to please them and sire an heir. Continuing on, he told them that if they continued bringing it up, he would relinquish his claim and start a life elsewhere, after which they could find someone else to take Hold in his place. It seemed he'd made his point, as his parents dropped it, much to his surprise...but his father wasn't happy about it. While arrangements were made for a different relative to succeed them, that mostly left Dorian to do as he pleased. But everyone was walking on hot embers; family dinners were uncomfortable affairs and seeing his father in passing would be a contest to see who'd look away first.
For about a Turn, life at home went on as such, until a Searchrider from Igen Weyr arrived. Dorian didn't even let her finish her sentence before accepting Search. Here was a chance at a new life and an honorable way out of his duties, an opportunity he'd be insane to refuse; it would neatly wrap up his past for everyone involved and open a path to a new and brighter future. Dorian visited but once in his tenure of Candidacy, close to his twenty-first Turnday. But his purpose in coming wasn't to celebrate, but rather to speak directly to his ex-fiance; to tell her in person why they wouldn't wed. It went...remarkably well, much better than he'd expected.
Dorian expected to return to Igen Weyr in short order afterwards, but found a firelizard egg at his hearth that following morning. Suspecting it was his parents that left it as a gift for his upcoming Turnday, he thanked them graciously and promised to write as often as he could, a promise he's kept. In so doing, matters between Dorian and his parents aren't as tumultuous as before. Dorian researched firelizards extensively to make ready for his new companion, but he awoke at dawn one day to hear his egg cracking, hurrying to dress and get things ready as he'd studied. Dorian later Impressed to a little garnet, naming her Xaura, incredibly pleased for his new friend.
Dorian had begun Candidacy at twenty Turns and excelled, which led some to believe he'd Impress quickly. But after standing at hatching after hatching, Dorian had still not been selected. It was a humiliating thing for such a proud man, convinced everyone was mocking him for what he saw as a personal failure. But he tolerated it and carried on as best he could. It was about 2769 that saw Dorian finding himself in a relationship to one of Igen's dragonriders, named Rilienus. Very fond of him, he dared to consider calling it love. But things went sour two Turns later. Dorian and Rilienus had a major fight, what about exactly Dorian refuses to say. All he feels today is immense guilt, especially after what followed: Rilienus and his blue died in Threadfall a day later, granting Dorian no chance to apologize, explain, or say goodbye.
Seeing his peers move on and succeed while he was left behind, especially after losing his beloved Rilienus, proved too much for Dorian. Refusing to go home to his parents in defeat, Dorian applied for transfer to Fort Weyr. In a new Weyr, he hopes he can find a new chance to Impress and live his life in peace, where no one will know him and ask questions still too raw to answer.
UPDATES
- Early Fall 2774: After Turns of Standing and not Impressing, days before Dorian was due to age out, green Meguyakuth hatched and chose him! [Hatching]
- Early Summer 2776: Dorian receives a letter from Gereon, his former mentor, informing him to Felix's death, his best friend losing his battle against terminal illness after Turns of fighting; Dorian decides drinking is an appropriate way to grieve.
