"We judge ourselves by our intentions and others by their behavior."
BASICS
NAME: P'nelo (Penelope)
GENDER: Cis Female
PRONOUNS: She/Her/Hers
ORIENTATION: Demiromantic Demisexual
BIRTHDATE: Early Summer 2755
AGE: 25 as of Spring 2776
LOCATION: Fort Weyr
OCCUPATION: Rider (Blue)
WING: Twilight
APPEARANCE
EYES: Chocolate Brown
HAIR: Auburn Red
HEIGHT AND BUILD: 5'4" | Buxom
PLAY-BY: Nicola Coughlan
FULL APPEARANCE:
Penelope stands at an adult height of 5'4" though perhaps she may yet grown a few inches taller.. so she hopes. Her face is cherub like, round, filled out and her cheeks always seem to have a rosy blemish to them. Her figure is full, perhaps some might even say she is a bit on the heavier side, something she isn't worried about but is still a point of contention amongst her more slender sisters.
She has long curly bright auburn red hair, which is often styled in some sort of updo to keep it out of her way and big bright brown colored eyes, the color of chocolates that she is so fond of. She often has a quiet fire and twinkle of intelligence in her eyes. She prefers to wear clothing and ribbons in the color of sunshine yellow when she can afford such with her marks. She has one bright yellow dress for gatherings and special occasions. Her daily outfits are often in paler colors or earth tones, skirts if she can get away with it but is a practical and sensible dresser.
PERSONALITY
PERSONALITY:
TW: Body shaming, comfort eating
Penelope is a very intelligent young woman with a heart of gold and loyal to a fault to those close to her... most of the time. She was always led to believe that she was the ugly duckling amongst her sisters and often they teased and poked fun of her about her weight. While she learned to stop responding to their barbs about the topic, it still does hurt her when her sisters or anyone decide to start making comments about how she should exercise more and that she should stop eating sweets and fruits so much.
Despite the hurt it causes inside, she is still firm in she is comfortable in her own skin so why should she not eat what she wants? Her quick wit and passion for learning and writing have lended itself well for her life's path so far, always having well organized and detailed notes for about any important issue so that if someone close to her needs something, she is ready with an answer.
She has a tendency to be a bit of a gossip, and would often been seen quietly sharing the latest of news to her best friend Eloise without hesitation. Her friendships tend to be a lot of her taking on the problems of others she values, even before herself and she often stresses over her own wants and desires, the uphill battle with what her heart wants and her mind rationalizes can lead to her spilling something hurtful or saying something untoward to someone when she is very irritated. She also would not hesitate to quietly destroy someone who wronged her, finding out what sticks to poke them and in what order and then proceeding to do so in such a way she would not be discovered.
Penelope is also a comfort eater and when sad, distressed or bored, she will eat whatever she can to alleviate these feelings. While not the healthiest coping mechanism, she falls into destructive routines such as these as she often did when in the company of her mother and sisters. She also suffers a lack of self esteem and self worth and seeks to find something to fill that void, whatever it may be.
HISTORY
FAMILY:
Portia- Mother | Weyrfolk
Philip - Father | Deceased
Prudence - Older Sister | 26
Philippa - Older Sister | 22
SIGNIFICANT OTHER: Eloise of Green Coronatuth
BIRTHPLACE: Minor hold beholden to Fort Weyr
HISTORY:
TW: Body Shaming
Penelope was the youngest child and daughter born to Portia and Philip and was a big and chubby baby, even as she grew into toddlerhood and was more active. Her older sisters took to poking fun at their little sister, chastising her for her robust body shape and her love of eating. For many years, this led her to cry and retreat to the outside. It was one such day like that she met the girl that would become her best friend in life.. Eloise.
Eloise was everything Penelope wished she could be like.. strong, stuck in her convictions and did not take anything from anyone. This inspired her to start digging her heels in when her sisters were being absolute brats and the pair of girls were practically attached at the hip growing up, as they lived close by one another.
As she blossomed from girl into the makings of a young woman, her sisters started in more viciously about her weight and this time, even her mother joined in, often taking her precious snacks from her and telling her she was never going to be able to do anything she wanted to do if she kept eating like she was and find a good husband. Her mother was consumed with the notion of forming ties to someone of note and power and her daughters were always a means to that end.
Penelope was made to feel like she was a disappointment and it caused her further self esteem issues. These things she started to internalize, not wanting to give her family the satisfaction of knowing they hurt her any longer. One day while browsing some fabrics at the traders, she came across a search dragon and their lovely bonded. She was immediately interested and set off into a daydream of how wonderful would it be to become candidate and soar the skies.. make something more of herself than the ugly duckling that would be nothing of note.
She was fortunate when she was searched that day by that very rider and gleefully came home and announced to her family she was going to become a candidate, that this was what she wanted. Her mother scoffed at her, saying that she hardly had the physical build for such labors but she let her go anyway, glad to be rid of the one child she viewed would net her nothing but trouble.
So it was that Penelope packed her things, left a note for her best friend that she was off to become a candidate and encouraged her to pursue the same, and was off to Fort proper. Candidacy was a welcome distraction from her somewhat unpleasant home life and she threw herself fully into it, keeping very detailed notes from all the classes and it seemed as if no one here cared much that she was a bit more filled out than most in body shape.
Her first standing was uneventful but when she was 16, when she stood at the Wandering Hymn clutch, her moment had come. As the first egg started to hatch and the tail poked out first, Pen commented how that was rather cute and interesting, as she typically thought and recalled most hatched with their nose coming out first from the egg. The egg cracked open to a very lovely baby blue and Penelope immediately loved his color. She tried to calm herself to not become too attached, because she had no way of knowing whom this little one would choose.
As the blue wandered with a purpose up to the line of her and her fellows, she noticed he seemed to be carefully gazing over them all and walking with a relaxed pace. She noted when he nudged the stomach of the candidate beside her and felt a slight sadness... for a fleeting second. She had been sure he was going to bond to that candidate and when he didn't and kept moving, that threw her off. This one seemed a thinker.. his rider was going to be a lucky one.
She watched the dragon with curiosity as he strode back up the line... then tucked himself in next to her. She had thought he was just going to nudge her like the earlier candidate but as she looked down and saw the swirls of color in his eyes, she openly began to ugly cry, almost missing when he spoke to her.
Well, it's nice to be out now, I think. Took a while, but I'm here, and you're here. It's all gonna be a good day, I'm thinkin'.
Penelope gathered her new bonded into her arms and responded to him that it was indeed a good day and she was glad to have found him. Her tears and soft happy sobs confused her dragon, was she not happy? Pen quickly explained that she was very happy and sometimes humans did this when happy. Satisfied with her answer, he went on to feed. As he ate, Penelope was euphoric, hearing all the times in her mind that her mother and sisters said she would amount to nothing, that she was just going to age out of candidacy, that no dragon would pick a person like her... well they were going to have to eat those words now, for here was a glorious blue.. and he chose her!
The days that have followed have been full of purpose and wonder, as she began to learn her bonded's personality and they have been striving hard to learn and the joy of watching her bonded growing fills Penelope with a hope and purpose she had not felt previously, the future is bright!
UPDATES
- Early Spring 2772 - Impressed to Blue Easteth
